Fear is a Liar
Fear tells us to be quiet. You're alone. Your struggles no one else will understand. That you don’t need to burden others with your troubles. Fear tells us to grasp on to the earthly things around us. To put our faith in the physical, tangible things we can see, touch, and control.
Fear causes depression and anxiety.
Depression is that voice of fear inside your head that tells you you are not enough. That voice that reminds you of all of your shortcomings, all of your past mistakes. It tells you, you are worthless. It tries to keep you focused on your mess and all the darkness in the world around you, and of all the hopelessness that surrounds you. It wells up the pity within you. It keeps you focused on your losses and limitations and does not let you see the true beauty that is abundantly around you.
Anxiety is fear of things that have not happened yet. Things that “could” go wrong. Anxiety will keep you up at night worrying about what “might be” or what “might not”. It tells you, you are not capable of doing the things that are set in your heart. That’s your not smart enough, not educated enough, that you don’t have enough experience or that you have experienced too much ugliness in this world and others will look down on you because of your past.
Let me tell you something my dear sister, fear is a liar!!!! All of those depressing thoughts, all the anxiety that’s welled up inside of you. All the doubt, all the fear, it’s ALL a lie!
“YANA” You. Are. Not. Alone.
You are not the only one who is facing a struggle of this magnitude. There are others that are going through, or that have already gone through, similar struggles. There are people all around you that you can reach out to for help and prayer.
My sister, YANA!!! You. Are. Not. Alone.
So don’t feel bad about losing hope, not trusting enough in God to get you through, struggling even in the little stuff each day.
Even if you are mad a God, it’s ok. Share that with Him, tell Him your thoughts. Tell Him you are angry. Share with Him what’s on your heart and in your mind. No matter what you say or do, the fact is He loves you and nothing can or will change the love He feels for you.
For heaven's sake, the Bible tells us that even those that walked with Jesus, that spent day and night in his physical presents, those closest to him, had doubt and fear and anxiety. (Mark 4:35-41)
So don’t feel guilty or bad. Instead, turn your face to Jesus. Lay your burdens at his feet. When those emotions come over you cry out to him to wash you in his peace. He loves you. He loves you like no other ever could. And nothing you say or do could ever make Him stop loving you. He is always there for you. Even in your darkest hour, even when you can’t see him in the mists of the mess that surrounds you. He. Is. There. He is there to get you through. Just turn to Him, give it all to Him, trust in Him, and He will carry you through this and you will soon be able to look back and see all the beauty in the mists of the mess around you.
Stand strong my friend! If you feel you can no longer stand then fall to your knees, reach out your hand and grab His hand. You do not have to go through this alone. Seek out someone to help you, reach out to a friend, your pastor, a Christian counselor, or a coach that can help you. Someone that can guide you, that will pray with you and for you. Someone that can love you even if you feel unloveable. Reach out to that person that can and will hold you accountable to get through this storm.
You are strong, and you are enough! This storm will soon end and you will see better days!
‘May the Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you; may the Lord turn His face to you and give you peace.’ -N6:24-26
And In case no one has told you today, I love you dearly.